INSPIRATION, EXPIRATION

Today while I was playing IFG volleyball, it occurred to me that I was probably the freaking OLDEST girl (do I even have the right to call myself a GIRL now at this age..... ._.) in the courts. Cause most people my age have already graduated. Either that or they're from poly or they got retained or something.
But I was probably one of the oldest.
SHIT.


It has been a good weekend anyhow (:
Enjoyed myself immensely the night before yesterday, yesterday, and today!
WHOOOO!
And tomorrow the fun looks set to continue (:
Ahhhh, good dayz~
We need more of these (:
v(^o^)/

...........to find a person whom I can see singing Bruno Mars' Just the Way You Are to me, and meaning every single word of it which I can feel in my <3 (:

And that's the plan! Or standard to achieve. Not just anyone yo~

Birthday post coming up after tomorrow's mcq test! (: some long weekend relaxinggggg is in order (:

That I am really, really, really happy?
Not happy like today I bought myself new shoez or I got a pretty + cute rilakkuma manicure kind of happy but baseline happiness?

That means buying new shoezz or the little wonders that happen everyday only make me happier. That when I wake up in the morning before the day has started, I'm happy.

Sounds freaky right? Sometimes I wonder if my inate happiness makes me a freak. Especially since so many people around me don't seem to be happy.

There was a period of time when friends around me told me repeatedly how they envied that I was always so optimistic and hopeful and happy about everything. And in those moments I just felt oddly like an alien.

I know life gets tough. There's work, things to do, and increasingly, things to be responsible for and to answer for. But I just (crazily?) feel that we are all growing everyday and getting somewhere. It might not be obvious now but it IS happening.

I definitely feel that I have grown a lot over the past few years. Things get crazy sometimes but I know that I will get through them. I try my best not to complain even when I'm tired cos I know that doesn't really help and at the end of the day when I manage to get things done and to learn from them, I'm ecstatic that I made it.

So many people feel that med school has taken so much from them. That it kills their lives. I admit it can be consuming and sometimes, sacrifices have to be made. I have made them too.
But in spite of those sacrifices, I've managed to lead a super full life since entering med school. In fact maybe it's because of them that I treasure all the time I have with myself, my family and the friends who have stuck with me for so long.
I know now who are the people who will likely stick around for life because they care and we all make time to meet.
And it feels good. Med school has been a 'sift' for me in that sense.

So many people say to me when they find out I was in law school at first: Why didn't you stay in law!! Here so tough and whatnot. Law so much better if I were you I would have stayed.

I usually smile politely and then laugh.
But in my head I'm thinking, " If you ask me a million times over if I would have done what I did and transferred three years ago, my answer would be "Yes, yes, and yes." a million times over."

I have never for once regretted my decision. In fact, even the mere thought of regretting has never crossed my mind.
I love what I'm learning now in med school and I can't wait to start finally applying what I learn now when I become a doctor.

I'm not deluded to think that I can "save the world (must save cheerleader first hurhurhurrrrrr!!)" with what I do. But I do know I am making that bit of difference to the people I'm gonna come in contact with and I think that's what's gonna make my life even better in the future.

Wow what a mother long entry took me the entire train journey to type it!!!!!!!
I shall stop being so serious now and announce that today is none other than the long-awaited JAPAN DAY!!!!! Yet another day of fun, joy and laughter awaitsssss!!! :D :D :B

You know there's this interesting drink I just tried.
It's Nescafe ICE which claims to give you a "deep chill sensation" if you drink it.
And, it's trueeeeee!!!
After you drink it there's a minty cool feeling in your mouth.

......................oh shit.

I started out this entry wanting to talk about how curious and interestingggg that drinks can be made to leave a cool and refreshing feeling in your mouth. And I wanted to speculate on HOW this could be done.
Then as I was typing out this entry and after I typed "minty" above, it suddenly hit me that minty = mentholatum = something that they added into the drink to give it that effect.
So..........actually got nothing much to speculate.

Wahlau retarded or what.

Whoooo! I'm back! For a short while at least.
This promises to be a rather challenging posting..
Days don't end before 6pm or so it seems..
AHHHHHHHH but I will survive!!

I'm trying out this new thing which is to chiong maximally when I get home at night on weekdays so that hopefully, HOPEFULLY with all my fingers, toes and intestines crossed, I'll be able to enjoy some semblance of a life on the weekends!!!!

That means when I get home later there's lots to do.. Oh wellz there's no limit to what we can get used to right????

Anyway last week before I got my KKH schedule I was still wondering if I'd be able/like to make it such that I get to deliver babies on my birthday (next Friday)!!!!! Cos the entire notion is just kinda cool~
And voila! When I got my schedule yesterday, it revealed that I'm scheduled for night call (which is when we get to deliver the babiesssss!) on my friday!!!!
Awesome right? Except I wanna go out for a nice dinner on my birthday.
So I'm swapping with my friend for the night before (Thursday night) instead!!!!
That meanssssss.....
I'm gonna be able to deliver the first baby to be born on my birthday!!!!
Even better right??
(:
Awesomeeee or what?
I'm really looking forward to it!
Hoho
Ohk I'm nearly home so I shall stop here.
How's this for dedication mannnnn.

<3

The absolutely good and light mood continuessssssss (despite having EOPT in the morning)...
And below are the highlights of my wonderful and slightly odd at times day~

1. I finally, finally, tried the mix and match mcflurry from macdonald's. Sounds super inane I knowwww but I've been yearning to have it since like a month ago!!! And it's only available at VERY SELECTED outlets.
Howevz I kinda made a mistake with the order by neglecting to add strawberry sauze or chocolate fudge to it... Meh. Looks like I have to try it again??
And they didn't have milo nuggets! How atrocious! I had half a mind to tell the lady behind the counter that I could just pop over to 7-11 (which was just opp. the macs outlet) and buy a packet of milo nuggets and she could help me to add them to my icecream............ but I didn't la. HAHAHAHAHAHAH

2. I introduced my dearest teammate and closee friend of >10 years Jiayan (whom I call Jia) to my dearest CG mate/med school crazy budddyyyyy Jiayan (whom I call JY). HAHAHAHAHAH Cheap thrills abound..
I must admit I loved being able to say, " Jiayan!! Please meet Jiayan!!!" Yea yea I have a problem I know. HAHAHA

3. When I went off with Jia and JY went home, I told Jia I am not gonna spend any $$ today (simply because I don't have much $$... kua kua kua.), except to buy cute lame rilakkuma files from kino. (Yes I really know I have a problem.) So 5 minutes later we're in this shop and it's having a 70% off sale!!!! RIDICULOUS RIGHT?
Except I looked around and decided the clothes there weren't exactly my kind of style so I just floated and bobbed around while Jia looked at the clothes on display intently.
Then, Jia whipped something out from one of the racks and exclaimed, " XUAN!!!! THIS TOP IS SO YOU!!!!"
I turned and that was when everything went downhill.........................
So I bought that top she whipped out cos it was REALLY me.
And subsequently, I went on to purchase 2 more pieces of clothing and then 2 pairs of shoes.................. on top of 2 rilakkuma files. HAHAHA
But seriously, my most expensive purchase cost me $25 and the rest of the purchases were <$18 each!!!!!!!!!!!!
AWESOME STEALS OR WHAT?????

4. We were approached by this group of girls promoting Whisper pantyliners and ended up getting a pair of free movie passes! That are valid till August 2011!
AWESOME AGAIN OR WHAT?
Randomly drop from the sky one loh.

5. When Jia and I were in Chloe's, the sales assistant asked me what was the brand of the bag I was carrying.
Momentarily there was an awkward silence cos I got my bag from bkk and it is brandless!
She figured it out after a while and apologized haha
Even though it was awkward for a bit I felt like it was a hugeeee compliment!
WHOOOO
Please also note that I bought the bag in bkk within 5 minutes.
(:

6. This isn't really a 'highlight' but well Jia and I were 'chatted up' by some random strange dudeeeee while we were looking at stickers in kino's stationery section.
Or rather I was looking at stickers. Fine.
But yea it was strange mannnnnnnn. Maybe I'll give a blow by blow account in the next entry MAYBE.


And that just about sums it all up, amidst happy timesssss with 3/8 of our CG during lunch, and with some of the most most most favouritest people in my lifeeeee like my teammates and Amandaaaaaaa (:
I ALSO JUST FINISHED MY TRULY AWESOME DAY WITH FINALLY FILING ALL THE NOTES FROM MY SHORT POSTINGS AND ALSO EMED!

I hope this insane floaty feeling never ever ends. (: Cos I'm so thriving on it (:

More awesome days awaittttt whoooooooo! (:

To quote my rilakkuma files: Everyday feels happy like a Rainbow! :D :D

" May I have the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change those that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Yesss... I know I haven't been back in so damn long. In fact, I can't for the world of me remember (without checking my own lj page) WHEN was the last time I wrote on here!
I think it must have been at least half a year ago.......... wow (insert line talking about how time flies blabla etcetc. Cliche but true.)

I seem to have found the inspiration to write in here... again!
And just the day before my Emergency Medicine End-of-Posting-Test (EOPT for short) too!
Wonderrrfullll timing, as usual. (:
Have you missed meeeee my total readership of -4?
hahahahahahah

I have some wonderful little stories to tell. I think.
Funny ones (which might seem odd against the dark and slightly morbid look to my lj), crazy ones, heartfelt ones and of course, HAPPY NONSENSICAL ONES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which are probably the best of the lot. (:

I may be starting to write in here again for meimei's sake. HELLO!!!! hahahah or maybe your reply to my comment was just the kick I needed to resume this again.

I HEREBY RESURRECT YOU, MY DEAD OLD BLOG!!!!!!!!!!

I must say that I can feel a change in me because of recent events.
I think I've come to realise that I am actually really quite glad that it happened.
It was shocking, yes, but I think it was just the shove I needed to get myself out of the crazy deep rut I seem to have fallen into.
Now, I feel free. Emotionally free. No more shackles tying me down and from now on and for a gooooood long time, I'm going to focus on building me some nice solid castle tower walls that take some effort to scale, and a nice little moat surrounding it too, just for kicks. (;
Not that I'm trying to keep people out forever. I just don't want it to be so easy the next time.
So that when someone finally manages to cross the moat with the little froggies and guppies in it and successfully makes his/her way up these walls, we're gonna start out at the top of the world. (:
And it's gonna be just right.
(:

What a nice looong entry to end this hiatus huh? (:

Till the next timeeeeee whooooooooo!

So yesterday I bought a bottle of Mug root beer and didn't manage to finish it.
When I came home after my run this morning I decided to drink it cos ooooooooh carbonated sweet drinks are always such a joy to have after some exercise.
Then I had to drink some milk (daily practice since forever).
SO it suddenly occurred to me: What would happen if I mixed the root beer with the milk?!?!?!?!?

And I did it!!!!

Results: Pretty good actually. But you gotta make sure you pour quite a bit of the root beer in cos the milk seems to cover up the taste of the root beer pretty well. OH and there wasn't any curdling! I wonder what will happen if you try this with Coke. HRmmmmmmmm........

P.S. FINALS TOMORROW AND TUESDAY!!!!! WHOOOOOOO!

There was one lying in the middle of the pathway this morning when I was doing my morning run.
I went to great lengths to avoid it (not knowing whether it was dead or alive and I wasn't about to let myself find out till it's too late...) and just a few minutes later, this Indian lady on a bike just ran right over it.
Well, at least we know for sure now that it's definitely dead. It was a pretty small snake anyhooz.

I won't be blogging till after my exams! Which are very promptly coming up in 4 days.... :l
Gosh. I just hope they won't be spectacularly bad cos I'm not exactly well prepared man..

Random answer of the day:
I never ever leave the door open when I'm changing even though I may be completely alone in the house!! I guess I'm just...paranoid.

P.S. If you still haven't done it yet, trying setting your language on fb to PIRATE ENGLISH!!! Its one of the options at the bottom and its crazzzzzily funnnnnnnnnn hahaha you'd be amuseddd I'm sure :) it was totally the highlight of my day yesterday!! Yea ohk so I might be kinda easily amused/entertained/pleased/satisfied... It makes life easier tho don't you think? :)